I am so exhausted. Drained out physically and mentally. The last week was nerve wracking to say the least for my family. We cannot be happier that things worked out well. But nevertheless, I am out. The recent craziness of travel, not so proper food, the no yoga days and just the whole experience of it has thrown me off. I am not enjoying my food it's become a bloody chore. I find myslef forcing myself to eat. Anything. Swimming upstream is hard. I son't want to fight no more.I am going to first find comfort and then see what needs to be done..
I am just in such a pessimistic funk now. I know I will snap out of it but I cannot help thinking that I leave for school in a months time how will I handle all of that??
I will need to goto class for 8 hours everyday, study etc. I will have to eat and rest well also. What If? You know...
I don't want to let myself down. A completlety new culture, food everything. I may make a few mistakes but Oh I don't know..
Everything happens for a reason right. What is this trying to tell me? I hope to find out soon.
What helps you through stress?
sorry that you're going through all this my dear! I understand and have been in a bad self loathing funk lately. I've been using meditation, journaling and positive affirmations to help me get through it. Also trying to take my mind off what stresses me helps, though that is very hard!
ReplyDeleteIt seems you've answered your own questions. You need to get back to what centers you...yoga, meditation, simple, easy food...nothing fancy. Strip away any pretenses and go for the basics. One day you will start back in your good path, wake the next morning to a beautiful sky and know you've reached the other side. As Buddha pointed out to accept where you are at this moment. We are all funked for a reason...it makes the good tiems all the sweeter!
ReplyDeleteIn my thoughts,
Stacey
I am so sorry you are feeling down, but I will tell you, it can be done. I have almost finished a masters degree with a 4.0 GPA, and while it has its struggles, you can do it if you remain centered, calm, and find joy in the process of life. Stay focused in the now, and take on those things when they come. You receive what you focus on in life, so focus on health and happiness.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you xoxo